a different identity

We love to be a person of our dream and this is like a day dream to all of us ! It take us forward, it let us down, it storms our relationship , work , future even the change the person inside us . . .

In quest to find that whenever we feel our self in steady state we feel ashamed and in very few occasion feel delighted .We promise our self to be a normal/regular me but it exceeds us all the time .

We lie to us , we cheat us we become a dreamer of a dream not to be accomplished , 'shouldn't be accomplished dreams' are always interesting and make rooms inside us ,dominate us as we like to neutralise the daily toxin !

Should the wings of desire need to be trimmed for the right pace of life or need to be energised from the person with a different identity !

On the way back or going forward

Going back home is always exiting but when you are going back one home to another home with an unresolved situation then it's tough.

When I deep dyed my self into the problem which I thought is in the process of solution in course of time but actually that never happened .I shouldn’t take it for granted and waited idle.

I thought I'm to serve my goal rather felt my one in priority and handling need to be very technical rather straight .One of my nearest one phrased that my role need to be like bloating paper !

When you expects that your partner will accommodate all your needs and wants all through the life killing the own identity that is too much of expectations and dominance. A wife goes with those for the sake of starting initially then for the sake of harmony after that for the sake of children and later on when nothing to expect nothing to occupy own self then the mind covers with one thought why I have done these all long years! Oh my god my identity is no where and even my childrens don't have time for me !

When someone as a son has to face the reality that his mother doesn't want to stay with him or thinks that it would not be an wise decision. I was not bold enough to spend rest of her life with us considering the whole scenario .I couldn't sum up the discussion nor can came to a point by myself that how I can address the issue . . .

I tried to think as much as possible and came to a sort of status to do something that may come as icebreaker for the deadlock.

When Churchill lost the election even after leading the world during world war II he concentrated on painting quite religiously and didn’t gave up thinking that how ruthless the British voters to him ! so I'll also never never never give up !

a train a journey

When the train tries to go ahead make the journey possible the noise of the wheels sounds like it's not easy to take it forward. All journeys is consolidation of lot of efforts to make it moving and take it to the goal.I'm in a journey to my home town . . .

I'm in a different and difficult journey where the relationship need to be redefined .Can we redefine relationship or actually re position the persons according to our need for that time , that space or it's full of illusions of bondage !

The tensile strength of relationship cannot be measured with something so even if u want to be rude to pronounce that it might seem totally wrong the next moment .

When we start a family then we starts to live with different bondage, different relationship & priorities starts to act then at the very same moment conflict starts its journey !

The ignorance and non-acceptance make the chemistry more critical even after decades keep the wound as new as yesterday.  When someone tries to neglect that wound and try to act like authoritarian then the sleeping volcano explodes ! At that time whatever the things come it washes away, the definitions submerged with  soil that cannot be an expectation for the next mountain who is living together with today’s volcano, let the river flow and let the tree grow !

Now the mountain is praying for a peaceful coexistence .For him God is not blind like justice who only see through evidences ? !